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CozyCot Holy Grail Party

Come & join me at CozyCot Holy Grail Party this 26th & 27th September 2009!

oh Gravity~

lol emo-ness..

"Gravity"

Gravity is working against me
And gravity wants to bring me down

Oh I'll never know what makes this man
With all the love that his heart can stand
Dream of ways to throw it all away

Oh Gravity is working against me
And gravity wants to bring me down

Oh twice as much aint twice as good
And can't sustain like a one half could
It's wanting more
That's gonna send me to my knees

Oh gravity, stay the hell away from me
And gravity has taken better men than me (Now how can that be?)

Just keep me where the light is
Just keep me where the light is
Keep you all where the light is
Just keep us where the light is
Ohh.. where the light is!

Dream for an altar

Wow a big dream came into my mind after reading Mark 14:14-15

Jesus got his disciples to go to the upper room which was prepared and fully furnished so that they may fellowship for the Last Supper.

It just came to me that one day I will have a big house, with a big room set aside just for worship! A place like the Holy of Holies where I can meet my God. A place fully furnished and fully equipped. It is going to have writings on the walls. Filled with the best sound system and soundproofed walls.. It is purely and solely used as a place of worship! Wow what a dream! A place where I am going to meet God each day..

Evangelism

Woah today's QT just brought me back to focus once again..

It was always so difficult for myself to evangelise.. Sometimes it really work because I would sow time and efforts into meeting the needs of people.
But most of the time it doesn't and I lose heart.

Today it just dawned upon me that evangelism isn't about bring people to church. It is actually bringing God to people.

Jesus did not send His disciples out in order to bring more believers in. He sent them out to bring the Word of God to the people!
Jesus didn't meet people's need just so they can go to church. Part of a church function is to facilitate for evangelism. He went out to bring the Word of God and touch of God to each life. People just follow Him! Church is just a platform for people to come so that they are more focused to allow the Word and Presence of God to sow seeds into their lives.

Every ministry that we serve.. every preacher that we hear.. every music that we sing.. and every outing that we do.. it is all to build the very same platform to bring down God's "touch" into people's life.

This truth is going the be the difference in how we evangelise, how we do church and how we live our lives.

Indeed.. Love God, Love People.

Leave Your Town

Wow another awesome QT session!

Today during service God spoke to me. Another level of growing me spiritually.
I have tolerated sin all along. Today God broke that mindset. Detest it!
Detesting is the right word. Irritated because it keeps hindering us.
A new level of breakthrough today.
Because I carry His Name, therefore my stature must be built.

Then at QT I did "Hosanna"..
"Heal my heart and make it clean.
Open up my eyes to the things unseen.
Show me how to love like You have love me."

Allow one's heart to be rid of all sin. Make it clean.
Allow God to make us see things differently. We sin because we only saw things at a certain view.
We only see fear, insecurity, faithlessness, impatience, rage.
These are things that causes us to be blind.
These are things that gives opportunities for temptations to set in.

Jesus couldn't sin because He has love for people. He was tempted yet He did not give in.
For His sacrifice is going to worth more than sinning. He gave all that He had.
When we choose to sacrifice and put God and people first, all the things that had blinded us will also then sacrificed!

A reading of the bible reaffirms this. Mark 8:22-30 talks about Jesus taking a blind man out of his town to heal him. He layed hands on the man for the first time and he could only have a blur vision, but was completely clear on the second! Jesus then sent him away and tell him not to go into the town.

God also takes the blinded ones out of their town. A town speaks of the heart. You know where people come from by hearing them speak and act. For example the French are sophiscated and proud, Singaporeans are kiasu and speaks singlish! Therefore out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks.

We sin because we are blinded by the town we lived inside of our hearts. Therefore God will bring us out of our towns and cause us to see the way He see things. When we see the way He sees, it holds truths and sets us free. And commanded the blind never to go back to the town or even give chance for the town to communicate to us again.

Not to worry if we fall again during the process of cleansing. The blindman couldn't see clearly at first. But he was completely healed later. We can never gauge God's time, be patient and persevere

Leave your town and set your thoughts to God's thoughts. When we see differently, we act differently.
Amen.

(this is a post that is going to minister to myself and hopefully others too!)

The Ingredients of Sin

I knew that I had to blogged about tonight's QT for some reason

I had just sinned.. lied in fact..
I tried to do my QT but couldn't. I was overwhelmed with guilt and shame.

I pressed on by reminding me that God loves me. That my sins are forgiven and I do not have to live in shame.
I being to sing a part of "Heart of Worship". It says "You're looking into my heart.."
I couldn't fully understand it. It was comforting yet I still have to fight shame.

Then I turned to Mark 7 and read verses 1 - 23. It talks about how Jesus says that all defilement (sin)
are created from the evil that is rooted inside of our hearts.

People sin because of the things they kept in their hearts.
Things like laziness, pride, anger, impatience, faithlessness, fear..
All these results in people lying, falling into lust, having hatred, being greedy.

We have to deal with that root. Else we will be overwhelmed with guilt and shame.
Eventually falling into the deception of Satan that we are people that have no ability to overcome temptation, and then hide from God's presence.

Yes we can be Christians, hide from God's presence and live in sin and in shame. It is what Satan wants!
Don't give in, don't give up. Stand! Unroot evil!

Being Alone =)

Well I love the feeling of being alone in my room or alone on the MRT listening to my iPod or playing my guitar. Especially in my room where nowadays I spend alot of time in God's presence with my guitar. Just being soaked in Him.. I just hunger for this period of time each day.. I'm really loving it!

Hmm but felt a shift in the spirit some time ago.. that I'm moving on to the next stage of my life.. where soon I will prosper.. where soon I will have a relationship..
I do hope it's her.. I kinda like her now.. I used to "bo chap" her.. Now I think that she is very suitable.. she feels perfect with my life.. But better not pin my hopes too high else I fall hard again. God will move..

Even if I do not have all these things.. even if I were to stay poor and single all my life.. if I were to lose everything.. I still will thank God for dying for me.. for loving me.. for changing my life.. What He did in me is permanent.. no one can take away.

And even if I grow to become very prosperous.. and be with her.. I will still have God in my life.. I will still pick up my guitar and make time to be soaked in His presence.. He is my priority.
My life was built on my guitar, in His presence.. I will continue building it till the day I see Him

I Must Learn To Sit

"And seeing the multitudes, He went up on a mountain, and when He was seated His disciples came to Him. Then He opened His mouth and taught them, saying..: - Matthew 5:1-2

Had a wonderful QT. Was pondering on how to connect to my people, how to teach them things, how to grow them..
Holy Spirit then prompted me to read Matthew 5. It was about Jesus teaching His disciples the Beatitudes! The DNA, character, spirit and heart!

On the previous chapter, Jesus had His ministry healing the multitudes. Then He decided to stop and went up to a place with His disciples, where He could sit down and they can come to Him. If Jesus didn't drop His ministry and sit, the disciples wouldn't be able to have an opportunity to sit with Him and be taught with the Beatitudes! Sitting down is also an opportunity for people to connect! "Relac one corner?" hahaha.

Yes I must learn to put aside my ministry, get seated and connect with people. Especially my sheeps! Amen!

Decisions aftermath!

Can't help but say I love the things I'm experiencing after I've set things in my heart
.. Giving more in terms of financially, to church these days
.. Hanging out with young people again
.. Giving followups and building foundations
.. Seeing people grow
.. Seeing and pushing for CG growth
.. Pray for people, allowing God to speak through me
.. Teaching guitar
.. Lifting my thoughts to the spiritual realm
.. Moving on to the next phase of my life. Saw the vision, felt a spiritual shift to this new phase
.. A new faith for finances
.. A new faith for relationships

Things I set to do!

I've set in my heart to:
-Spend the minimal.
-Increase in tithe and offerings.
-Agree in the spirit with leaders.
-Get closer to leaders.
-Serve in everyway that I can.
-Think faith, pray faith, speak faith.
-Not think about love. No money no honey..
-Save up for studies.
-Give to God if He wants me to give my savings.
-Take lesser MC. Take vitamins.

Love God Love People Love Life

I love my God. Learning to love people. Love my life.

Gold and Silver I do not have. What I have I give to them, the unlimited powers of faith. In the Name of Jesus may the mysteries in people's lives be unlocked.

I am a happy person. I live happily, I die happily.

"Thank You for loving me" - Bon Jovi

To the next level. Realm of the Spirit.

A Future and A Hope

Had another awesome QT yesterday..

Hopelessness has always been lingering around my door..
Being sole-breadwinner with a sustainable pay isn't going to bring me anywhere further
Going to a private-U will be difficult as of now. Need to save.

But I do not want to compromise because of that and give any lesser to God.
Neither do I want to compromise my time for God and get an additonal part-time job.
Things gets difficult here because I need to keep to my convictions and vision by putting the rest of my dreams down
Now I can only work, serve and save. The rest are just dreams that have to be put aside.

Then God spoke a future and a hope into me..
I'm not going to remain as I am..
I'm going to be able to give to God much much more than I am able now
I will be able to support a family of my own
My future will not be downcast, I will have success

It may be 5 years, it may be 10.. but I know that it is done. I'm "walking home to see my resurrected son"
I have faith to surrender my dreams to Him who gave me a future and a hope.

Wonder G

Felt really honoured and privileged to be part of Wonder G! It's really awesome to be able to work with everyone there!
People like Esmonde, Frank, DT, Weihao, Lawrence! Also there were others who came and help! (Jiewei, Joyce Chua etc)

It was really fun just doing all those nonsense and hanging out with each and everyone. Getting closer to G Zone people.. Relationships!

Getting DT to shake his butt was difficult.. but now he even had his solo! hahaha! Well done lah!
Thanks also to Frank for going through the MV over and over again.. He taught us most of the moves~!
Wei Hao joined in the fun and got himself committed..
Lawrence had it all mustered up even before it was decided to be done! lol
Esmonde was just amazing with all the arrangements inspite of his schedule
and lastly a credit to Jiewei because he was still very sporting though he ended up not being part of the team due to his schedule.

We went really wild and trained for 4 nights! Kept coming up with interesting ideas and nonsensically nonsense.. Bet DT couldn't stand all the touching.. hahahhahaha
Frank and Lawrence were amazing.. they trained the night, stayed over.. and memorise bible verses for AMT that is on the very next morning!

What's more amusing was that there were "groupies" from different zones at our trainings.. Even the "serious" trainings couldn't stop them from laughing and screaming!!
But we were very encouraged and gained confidence because of that! Thanks!

It went well it went wild! It was all paid off and Garrett enjoyed it to the max! hahahahhahaha

Being Love

Wow what a wonderful QT I had today..
Today was the 2nd time I've been assured of love. First was by God (that happened about 1-2 years ago and it changed me!)
Now I've been assured that people do love me, that I don't have to obtain love really by my abilities. People do love me =)

That thought just brought tears to my eyes as I've always worked so hard to bring out the best of me so that I could feel love. But I never felt it until I really gave love itself..

People's return of simple words touched me..
A simple "Thank you"..
A simple "You rock"..
A simple Smile..
Simple assurances is all it took!

Now I know what it is like to be loved. Now I know how to love... =)

Way of Heaven (Chapter 4)

Back in Sun's place..
Things took a turn, the Prince and his Royal Guards had suddenly appear! Sun knew that the rescue had their identity taken and the Prince was furious.
The Royal Guards took orders and moved on to apprehend the culprits. Sun began to focus Ki (basic energy) on her palm and summoned out Heaven's Bow. Energy particles begin to form into the shape of a white arrow as Sun pulled the bow. She released it into the sky just in time and rained down thousands of frosted needles. The Royal Guards were taken down.

The Prince too gather his Ki and formed the Silver Serpent Staff of 9 Poisons. A 20 foot Silver Serpent was then form from the ground and threw itself against the group.
Everything was too fast for Sun to react, suddenly a white figure with golden hair appeared. The man striked the ground with his luminous green pole and sprouted out a wall of gigantic trunks. The group immediately took flight and escaped towards the outskirts of Sun City.

Seeing that all was safe, the man in white led them on a forest path. He then took off his mask and revealed himself as a very handsome man of the West.
"My name is Joak-Im (yo-ark-eem)." He said. None of them know who he was and thus Joak-Im revealed more of his identity.

Joak-Im was born into a Persian Royalty in the western part of China. But at the age of 12 he had lost his house of 44 members to the Prince and his henchmen.
Kong (who had been secretly tailing the Prince) then rescue Joak-Im before the henchmen finds him. Kong brought Joak-Im to Master Cho, who then became the youngest disciple of Master Cho.
Joak-Im's identity and presence was kept a secret by Kong and Master Cho. Joak-Im was very gifted. He grew up as wielder of the Jade Bamboo Pole and became a secret scout of Master Cho, looking for suitable wielders of the Fire Demon Blade.

And the only reason why he could reveal all these, is that How is the chosen wielder of the Fire Demon Blade..

Surprise Visit!

Wow got a surprise visit from Garrett and Lawrence today!
Instigated by Lim K S!! lol..

No wonder K S asked me what time lunch.. and if Garrett met me..
Then Law just called me and say wanna meet me below my office.. still ask me if I want any snacks / drinks..

I got out of the door.. saw Lawrence.. don't know why I turn my head and I saw Garrett!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
He handed me a bag of tibits and drinks.. wah…. super duper uber touched la… melt liao lor…
Heng he never buy flowers.. he was going too lor… but it will be very funny if I ever receive it.. =p

Walk them back to MRT.. rush back to work.. hehehehehe

It's been more than a year since I'd decided to grow up..

It's been more than a year since I'd decided to grow up..
After that decision, I began to grow so much..

I grew wiser
I grew more patient
I grew to be more understanding
I grew to be more communicative
I grew to love myself, love my life
I grew to think deeper
I grew to have a heart for people
I grew to be less self absorb (emo.. )
I grew to think very logically
I grew to think spiritually
I grew to be able to put spritual things and logic together
I grew to have control of my thoughts, especially in the area of crushes.. now I'm not bounded by it as I have greater plans
I grew to submit and understand leadership (church and workplace)
I grew to know my "tired days" and plan breaks
I grew to take responsibility for my decisions and actions, it affects others too
I grew to attach myself to church people, to build relationships, to grow roots
I grew to love Pastors and leaders more, for without them there is no me.
I grew not to take offence
I grew bolder
I grew to be more real
I grew to be more humble
I grew in servanthood
I grew in discipline
I grew in faithfulness

If this were to be my subject for O'Levels.. I would have improved from an E8 to B3! hahaha.. maybe I should be awarded another iPhone. =)

Leading Fulfilled Days

My days will only feel fulfilled when I've blessed and honoured God..

Be it through QT, ministering to others, love others or change of self..

Yea this is good! HAHA!

Won't felt like my days gone wasted or lousy about myself.. this is real good!

Increasing Faith

Faith can be increased.. we can say that faith has capacity..

Faith comes by hearing the Word of God.. Word of God is in Bible.. Bible holds records of God's promises, miracles, victories and blessings..

God's promises, miracles, victories and blessings are found in people's lives.. People's lives are only seen when we choose to notice, to care..

Therefore when we choose to care for people and notice people, we will see God move..
Therefore loving people increases our capacity of faith by seeing God move even more..
the capacity to believe in greater things.. it is FAITH!

King David first had faith to protect sheeps.. then faith to kill bears.. then faith to kill lions.. then faith to kill Goliath!

Leader-ish?

Some time ago someone told me that I was getting more "leader-ish".
Well it is not a good sign. That person would share many things with me cause I'm not "leader-ish". I knew my conversation with that person sparked off that comment. I had to trace back to what I spoke and the attitude I carried.

I felt like I have spoken down to XXX(the person I've spoken to).. I put XXX at a level where he/she is not.. XXX is at a much higher level than that..
I did not take clear view of XXX thoughts. I just "generalise" things. I guess being "leader-ish" is putting everyone else at the same level.
I may be wrong about my definition, but that's the closest mistake I could think of.

What I could have done was to put myself in XXX's view of the situation, understand fully the emotional and logical difficulties he/she is going through.
I've always brought that "generalising" attitude everywhere. It just makes thinking easier, but it is not good at all..
Being a leader just made that attitude more obvious.. thanks XXX, for pointing it out.

Also there's a "I was kinda full of myself" thing going on.. thinking that I know everything.. STOP!
The way I express myself is problematic too.. Well this is one problem that will always keep me from trying to communicate to people. But I cannot stop communicating, else I will become the old Samuel. I will go back to where I was, I will walk the other way..

Standing Between The Living and The Dead

Last night was at G Zone bible study. Watched a video by Ps Bill Wilson. He preached a sermon on Aaron standing between the living and the dead. (Numbers 16)
Well unlike Aaron, I could run easily.. I could do things for I am young. And really I do have abilities to do so if I wanted to. But what I really lacked was the fire, the prior step that was required before the act.

Aaron ran and took the fire, The fire in God's house. I have to take that fire for I felt like I never did. I felt like I've never really loved people. I've only love them within my comfortable reach…
Maybe I had when I first felt the need to rise up in the CG.. now the CG is comfortable.. so I became comfortable too..
There was no urgency to love. If those who do not yet know Jesus die the next day…
Up till now people dying still seem like bible statistics to me.. Sounds so far.. just like what Ps Bill said..

Well I don't need a revelation.. I need to do something.. a simple "I love you, Jesus loves you"
14,700 Jews died back then when the wrath of God came.. but there were millions of others who are still alive!

Yes! As I'm writing this.. fire came.. a decision to want to do something sparked the fire!

Way of Heaven (Chapter 3)

Heaven's Way was a technique written by the forefathers of the sect, who were also the first elemental benders of the 5 elements (Gold, Wood, Water, Fire and Earth). The forefathers are of different elemental nature, each had their ultimate elemental skill and weapon. These elements could boost and counter one another. Heaven's Way is the only technique that could bring the 5 skills to work together, creating the highest form of elemental bending.

Each elemental skill could only be learn by the suitable wielder of the elemental weapon. The weapons were profused with the energy cores of the forefathers. These cores are able to determine if each bender of the the sect is to be the next wielder of the weapon and owner of the skill. Gold wielder of the Golden Wing will obtain the Golden Shield Technique. Wood wielder of the Jade Bamboo Spear obtains the Spirit Piercing Skill. Water wielder of the Heaven's Bow obtains the Frosted Rain Skill. Fire wielder of the Fire Demon Blade obtains the Hell Fire Technique. Lastly, Earth wielder of the Adamantine Club obtains the 7 Destructions By Adamantine.

Many of those who were not chosen left the sect. They established their own school and skill, and some of them created forbidden weapons and techniques that requires occultic sacrifices. The Palm Taming of the 18 Serpents Skill, a fire elemental skill, was the most powerful amongst them. Even the mainstream elemental skills could not match up.. Only Heaven's Way..

Way of Heaven (Chapter 2)

How passed out after much loss of blood and he was brought to the mysterious lady's home.
Some time later How was awaken by the singing of 2 beautiful voices. He woke up realising that his wound was bandaged, placed in a room with exquisite furnitures and a sweet scent in the air.
He left the room and was led towards the source of the voices. As he walked closer, his heart began to thump. The voices were beautiful and aspiring, there wasn't a single note that does not bring hope and peace to the listener.
How reached the garden and saw a beautiful lady and a sweet looking young girl uplifting one another with their voices. The young lad's heart melted.. His eyes were fixed on the younger one as he felt that unexplainable sensation move in him, only to realise that he had fallen for her.

"I saved you!" The young lady spoke with a sweet smile and How's heart skipped a beat faster.
"I'm Lia and this is my teacher, Sun! What's your name?" The young lady spoke again with the same smile. How replied and thanked his saviours, but he couldn't stop blushing with that sheepish smile.

Seeing that How was a righteous and humble young man, Sun invited him to stay in their place and prepared a sumptuous dinner for him that night. That evening Lia begin to reveal to How their identity…

Sun is a very famous and well respected songstress in Sun City. Not only is she a ravishing lady with a beautiful voice, she would often give money to the poor and stand up for them.
The Prince was very much infatuated with her. He tried means and ways to possess her but will not succeed as it would cause an uproar with such disrespect. Living underneath, they were the disciples of the Heaven's Way Sect. The Prince turned out to be the fellow disciple of Sun's teacher, Demon Slayer Master Cho.

The Prince was always after power, but he skills and talent could never match-up with Master Cho's. He took grudge on losing the title of successor as Master of the Heaven's Way Sect. He left the sect taking with him a forbidden technique, 18 Palm Strokes of the Serpent Taming Technique, and soiled the name of Heaven's Way Sect with much evil. Many years later Master Cho pass away due to old age. He handed down his position and skills to his first disciple, Kong. Master Cho passed down an ancient technique that will defeat the highly skilled Prince. It was named Heaven's Way.

Thinking for self vs Thinking for others

Was kinda offended when i sent out an important sms yet the person didnt reply. I understood that the person is busy and therefore an sms would be appropriate.

But I waited to no avail... one thought sank into my mind.. "was i too insignificant for the person to reply this simple sms? no matter how busy that person is, the reply only take less than 10sec. "

Then i decided not to give in to that thought. I decided not to take offence and believed that it had slipped the person's mind. True enough when I had sent out a second sms the next morning, the reply was immediate.

A heart to serve others or a heart for others to serve us makes a huge difference.
it will change the way we work, it can make or break a relationship.

Way of Heaven (Chapter 1)

Long long time ago in the eastern province of China lived a rich young man, How.
How was born to the most prestigious family in the region, owning hundreds of acres of land. It was a fortune awaiting to be his.

When How had reached a certain age, he was sent to the Sun City to learn the trades and mold his talents.
The Sun City was filled with people from all levels of society and all walks of life! There's no talent you will not find, no deception you will not receive.

The Sun City is under the governance of an evil martial artist who names himself the Prince. He had made the Emperor his puppet and gave freedom to every vice and deceit.
He wields the Silver Serpent Staff of 9 Poisons and is a master of 18 Palm Strokes of the Serpent Taming Technique. His abode, the Rock Valley, a place where none who seeks power would ever return humane.

While How was still astonish by the glamour and grand of the city, evil greeted him. Men in white clothes and black scarfs took him out. How was brought to a warehouse and kept inside along with many who seemed hungry and weary. Little did he know that they will be blood sacrificed as an increase to the Prince's internal energy.

Suddenly the doors flung open and a mysterious young lady appeared. She was wearing a veil and holding a metal club. In a moment, all the chains of the prisoners were gone and each gave all their might in the escape. The guards flustered and began killing the prisoners. Skillfully, the heroine swung the club and bashed it into each and every enemies' head. A guard jumped at her rear with the intend to slash her but the heroine couldn't respond in time.

How saw all these and in the split second threw himself to where the slash will cut. It landed a deep cut on his right chest. How bled profusely..

iPhone bloggin

wow i can blog thru iPhone!! roxx!!

testing testing...

The Future

Financial Analyst?
Business Administrator?
Entrepreneur?
ZM?
Ministry IC?

Well I need to learn how to communicate properly.. Connecting with people
Had always been alone since young. Both parents were busy working and I hardly have any friends
My communication journey started with depressive words and often contain words of death. Now I'm learning to speak life, watch my tongue

My RSM

During my NS days.. There were many interesting characters.. Kinda brightened up my NS days. Especially my ex-BSM (Battery Sergeant Major), BSM and RSM..

His signature move is his "Typhoon Salute".. Whenever he does drill lessons.. He will always say this.. "When you salute, you must cut down fast!... Good Morning Sir!.. Cut down fast *PA!*(he will cut it down at 200rpm.. And the strands on his hair will begin to fly away.. no lah lol).. "
As a RSM he has an image to uphold.. But aiyo.. So act "saht".. "Baris.. Sedi…. HUR!!!... Pandan keda PA panda HUR!!"

Once during Guard Duty I "twung".. Kena 7 extra.. Then back at battalion he commented.. "this samuel ar.. Don't See him blur blur.. Actually is a very cunning fella"
After that kena mark already.. LOL.. Every guard duty demo ask me to do.. Lucky I'm an expert in guard duties.. (buy a lot, so very pro.. Can even write books and maps on how to perform an easy duty.. Camp nemesis(s) too)

People always nick name him "Chao Sng"(smell from spoilt food, e.g. milk).. Because his surname is Sng.. But my friends called me Sng Buay(sour plum) sometimes.. So there was once my friend shouted my nickname and he turned to that guy immediately.. Haha after that we just laughed... knowing that it was his childhood nickname.

It is really funny when he always try to act pro and show us how to shoot with our rifles.. But his score at range is gonecase 1 la…

Towards the last 6 months of our service.. We got to know him better.. And he respected us for our skills.. Everytime we see him we will shout "RSM Huat ah!".. Then later at the back "RSM tao moh huat ah!".. He took care of us and we kinda respected him lah.. amazing man..

NS is the only time you can do almost everything you've always wanted to but dare not… atmost kena confinement.. Hardly DB cases unless ur attitude really got problem..
But please don't learn from me.. Bad example.. LoL.. I just wanted to make my days more interesting during NS.

Jing Yong is lame.. But still nice.. hahaha

LOL Jing Yong is so lame.. Jiu Ying Zhen Jing came about when an official tried to correct texts of Buddhist Scriptures and unknowingly equip himself with the art of breathing and qi flow..

I really wonder how Jing Yong thought of that.. Hahahha so funny.. Just reading scripture texts breaks through Ren and Du pressure points.. Allowing the flow of "qi" to all parts of the body.. Really really lame..

But acupuncture really works.. "qi" is just a mythical theory.. Acupuncture redirects blood flow.. Thus moving more oxygen, immunities and blood to the required area for treatment

Economy View

First is the Lehmann Brothers incident.. Now the Swine Flu.. Economy took a deeper plunge.. BOA is in desperation for a $50b capital.. Chief Executives are stepping down or "died mysteriously".. Things are going to get interesting from here on. Big players are tightening their belts. A wave of new players will be rising to ride on.. Some will bring new faith.. some will introduce changes.. This is exciting.. I'm watching..

Though Singapore took the hit quite well.. But still people who built their houses on soil suffered financially and psychologically.. Fear spreaded much. As a conservative and spoon-fed nation, the first fruits will not be ours. Amidst times like these precise business ventures can change the atmospheres..

These are just my thoughts.. It isn't backup with much solid information nor foundation.. But it's cool to think.. Hahaha

My CG, My Ministry

CG's very much stable and growing now. People are rising up!
Very happy to see lawrence grown so much!
Also peishan being happy with her new job. she's made for it lah!
Jackson's back to his place! haha!
Gina's blooming once again!
Juana's increasing in faith
Davis found strength in his battles
Rebekah's had will to overcome obstacles
also many others i do not know personally.. But I know God is doing work inside of them!

yay it also means good news for me! hahahahahahahaI can put more time in the audio sermon team. It's really lacking manpower there..Pastors' sermons are getting real hot these days.. Amen! I'm tired..but happy producing them!

My love

Hohohoho!
Recently I'm able to relive my childhood..
I've managed to download a copy of the hongkong comic, Tian Xia!
t's about the story of FengYun(Stormriders). I've always wanted to read it.. but had no money to buy.. and now.. hehehehe

Also I'm finally able to know the story prior to Return of the Condor Heroes,the first part of the trilogy, Legend of the Condor Heroes!
Really really cool.. But first time i've seen such a dumb male lead in Jing Yong's story. It's nice!

I think you've noticed.. yea.. I like martial arts.. I like "qi"..I like ninjas.. I like samurais.. =)

Gentleness

During yesterday's G zone service, God begin to show me how Pastors love people..
I love people too.. but most of the time deep inside of me there's an aggression
to want to get things done. I lack a gentleness inside of me. Though I seem patient
to many.. sometimes I just can't be bothered by things.
And during worship I begin to feel that gentleness. Will work on that! Cool!

Gettin' uncrushed

I do get into crushes all the time..
once i crush.. i get crushed by it for very long.. lol

so during the last 6 years.. i had 3..
It's very bad for me.. because I get distracted all the time!

So now I've decided that I should concentrate on saving up.. loving my people.. building the Church..I don't want to waste time getting distracted by crushes.. it's a pain in the a**

So I thought of this "Brilliant" idea! Haha I shall redirect my love to one of my favourite female artist since secondary school, BoA! (the other was Mariah Carey).
Yea she is super pretty.. but pretty girls are all around.. *BORING*
She can dance very well! And she can sing! She's very hardworking lah.

People may disapprove of it.. but aiyo.. whatever works on me. lol
Let's hope this can last until I get into uni.. =x

My life

Jobsearch aside.. I still need to get my degree.. I've always wanted to study economics!OR anything related.. finance, banking, insurance.. This 1 year in the financial line affirms it even more!

Now i got to save up for private-U get a degree and get a stable job atleast..I don't wish to be rich.. just enough for my parents and I.. And all of my efforts will go to building the church.
yea actually even if I don't get all these.. i'm happy enough. God has changed my life.
I'm very much satisfied with it. I can die anytime.. BUT! I know there's more of God's kingdom I need to build..

yes I am simple. haha.

How Pastor How and Pastor Lia impacted me

Haha was laughing inside myself during G zone svc last nite.. Great people were sharing how Pastors had loved them.. going into their lives..

I think Pastors showed me love by discipling me! I was arrogant, I was proud.
Pastors had to take time to disciple me in all the ways i've done wrong..
Seriously, if they don't love me, they wont bother..
My parents were uneducated.. therefore they couldn't do much..I could throw my temper anywhere and they would still love me.

Pastors took the extra step and taught me life.
Pastors also believed in me. I was a person with much insecurity.
They prayed for me and showed me much appreciation for the work I did!
There was a period of time when I did the church website. Frankly speaking, I thought that it wasn't up to any standard. But Pastors got the whole church to affirm me. They even gave me money for the work I did.I did not deserve it, but still they gave..

Thank you Pastors! I love you!

I would be a spoilt brat.

Aiya many times I hated the life I have.. Born poor.. family always in debts.. debts cleared.. now this..
But without all these.. and also me being in heart of God church.. I would be a spoilt brat. Seriously.

Mum's just got her new "limb"

Mum's just got her new metal limb she could walk with some help, but we still have to wait for the artificial limb.
Dad's very old now.. so even if mum could walk already.. I will still be the sole breadwinner.

Hmm What to do next?

Hmm What to do next?
Collegues leaving.. my contract's ending (if HR decides lower man power and not renew me)..

Seriously life will be tough if I'm the very few left in the section. No 1 else would know how to handle.

Things are not as easy as the new guy up there sees.